A few weeks post Christmas, I took him into the vet and they diagnosed him with cancer of the mouth. The vet removed what she could and sent it to be biopsied. Yup, cancer indeed. After much debate of cost, value of life, realistic expectations, we went full in-Dexter had become more than a pet-he was my baby. We had part of his jaw removed to rid his body of the cancer. We also had some shots to prevent or kill off the cancer if it spread.
Well… a few months later, Dexter was not looking so great. His cancer returned and it spread.. badly. There was nothing left to do. I can't even begin to share the emotions,feelings, thoughts during this awful time..
All we knew was that Dexter had to be thought of first-not us. Dexter's will to live was gone,he was not eating or drinking and could not walk well-all within a few days' time. Other than going to a friend's 12 year old son's funeral , this was the hardest decision I had to make. It was time to let Dexter run free in the Rainbow Bridge and love life again.
This blog is not about being sad or pitying me. Instead,it is to teach us all to be grateful. We are so grateful for the pictures and the ornaments from Dexter. We are so happy we immortalized that crazy guy in a book series! We are grateful that he taught us about dogs-he was our first and we can't imagine life now without a dog!
Whether it is a pet or a person, please take time to say "I love you!" or "Thank you!" or "You mean so much to me." Don't take the easy way out and wait until next time..there might not be a next time. The same day Dexter was diagnosed with cancer was the day my mom was admitted to the hospital for her depression for her Alzheimers'. Like I said, we have had quite a year. Some people tell me that caring for a dog and my mom is ridiculous and too much of a burden and I should just put them out of my life or give them less time-can you figure out who I give less time to instead;)?
Live in the moment, push through the hard times, see the good lessons there,and always always find a silver lining. Loving someone and losing is far better than never loving at all.
I bid 2013 adieu and thank 2013 for all the lessons and memories..and I pray for a better and happier 2014 for me and us all!